I recently met a new friend.
And due to circumstances, nature and nurture and medication. .. they are for the most part emotionally neutral.
What does that even mean?
Well, for someone like me who feels too much- who senses your every flutter or shift of emotion, who can sense when you're "off" or your disinterest, who feels everything you're feeling... magnified. .. well, this is the greatest find, the greatest gift of friendship that can exist for this moment.
I don't have to guess.
And I don't take anything on.
I don't have to anticipate or react.
They are just open and honest and non reactive.
I love people. I love my job. I love my friends. But there are days when the act of being around people and absorbing their emotion is so exhausting.
But there is nothing to engage with but the actual person and the thoughts of this friend. And I just needed to write my relief down.
I spent an evening with this friend recently and after hours of talking I felt like I'd been to a therapy session... except, I've yet to find a therapist that I knew I could click with.... too much emotional transparency on their end, so I guess this is how some people feel after leaving the therapist. (I feel like everyone can benefit from a therapist, I'm not announcing my insanity)
No big conclusion today, no lesson to take away. Just really content and want to remember this.